Boundaries

We set our limits for ourselves and for others to abide by.
But, why do we set these limits?
Is it to keep our life on track?
Is it to keep our hearts safe from disappointment?

Boundaries are where we draw our lines in life.
Where we make it obvious that we won't push our limits
to areas where we don't dare go.
But why is it that there are some people in life
who decide to take it upon themselves and test the limits of others?
To manipulate them, take advantage for their own selfish reasons.
Is it their selfishness that takes over them?
Is it their fears of failure that cloud their actions?

Where do they get off thinking that it's okay to be twisted with their words.
Thinking that I wouldn't see through them.
When I stare through their eyes
I see...
emptiness.
Their thoughts and mind drowning in that bottle of whiskey
to not face any truth of who they are
and not knowing how to feel secure and come back to reality.

The only way they know how to survive
is to create this image in their mind of a world that doesn't exist.
Or, maybe it does.
This world they've created is full of manipulation, ego, control, power.
It's a world where they only see themselves in it.
No one else.
They step on hearts and take advantage of all who is willing to be controlled.

Well, my boundaries are not available for you to cross.
I am not the person who allows others to push my limits.
I stand firm on where I am and what I believe.
In my world.... I make the rules.

[ Fugitive ]

he runs from everything he knows
turns his head to look the other way
there, he hides in silence
in his black-hole of a world
willing to be traded
anything, to not feel jaded

a fugitive he is
the one thing he's good at
a fugitive he is
nothing will ever change that

in the mirror, he faces himself
broken. destructed. and unexpected.
his identity, which he no longer knows
clearly torn and unaware
of where to find reality
or does he just live in fantasy?

a fugitive he is
escaping the convictions of all life's past
a fugitive he is
his journey to never look back


to never look back.

color me [photo-art]

the ride.

well here it goes
this roller coaster of a life
I'm just as anxious as I've ever been
climbing up is what I do
everything to make my dreams come true

it's gonna happen
right here. right now.
I see it from the top of my own world
the view... pure bliss.
my life and how I made it

if we can't be optimistic
then what else is there to be?
negativity just does not suit me
surviving, is what I've been doing
and baby, I'm starting to get ahead

here we go
on this roller coaster of a life
to the top for a free fall
is where I'm ready to be
hang on because this ride is here tonight
the ride of your life
and everything we'd hoped it'd be.

Hidden Secrets

childhood dreams and secret heroes
her hopes and dreams
crashed down to zero
save your tears for another day
cuz today the sun says to come out and play
the devil hides deep in the details of life
and tonight you're gonna find him, he, who won't lie

be free. live large. love all.
this beautiful world isn't gonna let you fall
but blinded you've been
and may never forgive him
try it out. taste it. feel it.
but don't be afraid
to release the secrets you hid this day

let it go.
he's too young to understand
that life has given you one last chance
its up to you, honey
to walk the stone beaten path
the one you've been debating on whether to go back

history has been made
so sing your song
sing it loud and clear like its never been gone
its the beat of your heart that's always been near
the tune you've never really seemed to fear

and there it is
he who hides
the devil himself
there in your life

early days

early days
are the days when she was naive.
the days when she thought she was complete.
that night, she made her way down to the white sandy shore
and faced the deep blue sea.
there... is where she dropped down to her knees.
and cried.
she cried. and cried.
the waves pounding against the sand...
drowned out the sounds of her insecurities.
with the dark lonely sky
swallowing the moonlight above.
the waves take away her broken heart and pain...
with you... she's done.
and a thousand tears later...
she realized-
that she never meant to love you.
no, she never meant to love you.

Come Stay

I get this feeling.
Not quite sure what it is.
It kind of excites me.
To figure out the unknown.
But where do I go from here?
Do I jump forward?
Or wait and hold back?
This is the part that always trips me up.
One step forward? Or two steps back?
I think you see it too.
Maybe you're not sure what to think either.
Sometimes you're there.
Sometimes you're not.
And I'm not sure which way to look at it.
In time, I hope you can see...
That I've been looking your way.
Whether or not you decide
Maybe... just maybe, you'll wanna come stay.
Stay with me and see through me.
The world through my eyes.
And I'll come stay with you
To see your world too.

Color Me

Color me your color
Paint me what you see
Open roads
And clear skies
Are all I really need

Your hand on my leg
As we drive the road unknown
Beats walking in the sand
In this huge world alone

Color me your color
Draw me outside the lines if you please
Large mountains with trees as tall as trees can be
Show me life with everything you see

Your body contoured right next to mine
With a touch so warm
And whispers so sweet
In bed we lay beneath the sheets

Color me your color
Sketch me delicately soft
Bright yellow daisies stretched for miles far beyond
Display those colors that have forever been gone

[B]roken hearts

Every time I think of you I get anxiety

Trying to pull myself together and make it all ok

By myself I know exactly what to say

But when faced in the moment with you

I lose all the words I knew

I've seen that side of you that's so pure and true

But you confuse me with everything you do

Truth is all I need

All I need to get by

All I need to be calm

Quit leading me on

I have dreams to live and make come true

If you wanna be in my picture

I'd be happy to paint you in

But don't give me a half-ass answer

I deserve more than you seem to give

I know deep down you have a good heart

But for some reason you won't use it with me

Your words are kind and beautiful to me

Don't forget that that's not all I see

Actions speak louder than you may believe

They're loud enough for me to see

Live your life and do what you need

As I wish you'd share it with me

For now all I can give is a warm smile and hug

And move on with my dreams

If for some reason you wanna come and be with me

Don't be upset if you're too late to see

To see that I loved you

To see that I cared

But one can't hold on forever

When they're not sure you were ever there.