Mistaken

He's drawn to her uniqueness
as though it's something he's never seen
In aw he's amazed
and believes she needs setting free

He'd follow her across the world
travel where ever she may go
Go to the extreme
if it means to never be alone.

For he does not know who she is
he seeks for more.
where he stands.
what she wants.
but no way to know.

For time will help him see
that she is not for him.
Both are lost and trying to find
a way to be free from within.

toxins

Brittle are her bones
as she lies there silently
confused and not sure of what I should do.

why does she do this?
hurts her body in such ways
it pains me to see her
treat herself with such fray?

But who am I to think such things?
when I, myself... love to smoke and drink
I let these poisons and toxins in
but no more do I let them rule my world

2:14 AM is now the time
awake and waiting until everything is fine
the taste of red wine, as it warms my belly
and the long drag of tobacco eats me inside

Why does she do this?
hurts her body in such ways?
why do we do this,
subject ourselves to this every day?

Questions

It's just that today.... I'm not there yet.
I need this moment.

I need, this.

Where's my answer?
I feel it so close
but have yet to discover it.
All I want is for this to be revealed.

I'm debating.
Should I?
or shouldn't I?
Tonight... I want to.
a bottle just sounds so good.
It'll be different..
I hope. I hope.

The strength of my confidence
seems to come alive at night
I feel sure, okay, superb.
If only the morning sun
would no longer break me down.

It once was my strength
and has now become my weakness.

What happened?
Did optimism fail?
and pessimism flourish?
It'll come back...
the determination, strength, assurance.

Right now, it's become unknown.
Lost and confused - I don't seem to care.
Is this what it's like?
to be broken?
or destroyed?

Closer to discovering.
Closer to becoming.
Where did hope come from?
Where did we learn to seek for love?
to wanna find it.
What image does it paint in my eyes?

Hope... is our weakness.